冷漠 文/遇蜓

你身后的那片沙漠
丘壑起伏
阴晴莫测
偶尔一头蜥蜴
冒在飞腾的蒸汽间
大头燥皮巨爪
随着热浪滚滚
扭曲成记忆里的河
越翻越远
夜烟凛冽时
碰着几株仙人掌
正运用着胃抽搐的力道
向青天 往赤地
汲取养分 生出了芒刺又加苦了白血
但众多时候
只看见 海市蜃楼
在柔软温热的地域
用辉煌的断壁残垣
诱我迷路
我唯有
循着交缠的风痕
那恰似黄纸红字鬼画符袅袅漫开的轨迹
踽踽巡弋
走三千年
走入蛇肠般蜿蜒的沙井
去到你身前
找寻
在全日蚀时才会出现的
你的笑靥
好成全
我奉献式的顽执

toshiba... fujitsu.... sony... money... money... money...

I don't think I am becoming materialistic but there are really many things I feel like buying. I guess I do need them. They are expensive stuffs, I don't have the money to own them without adding on to my burden or tie me down further. Like almost everyone in this time and age, I am choosing to go further from the dreams of having total freedom. Cause we have so many needs to be filled. I am not being greedy but I am made to need them. For instance? Can I not own a car? (else will you wake up two hours earlier than you have to to wait for the bus and to be stuck in a vehicle with loads of other people with a total stranger controling your safety? I am ok with the latter but I guess the former is enough to kill me) Can I not own a laptop? This is what I have been thinking of the whole day... then I won't be able to update my so called blog as frequent as possible... argh... then it comes to the question whether I should tie myself down to financial commitments and continue working in the same company, the same department, doing the same thing, and meeting the same people who will show me the same face in the next three years, for this extra asset I am hoping to have... In the end, I don't think I have much of a choice and in the end's end.... I don't think I can really get away... in the end's end's end... I guess I should start to make myself psychologically ready to receive my company's long-service award...

sigh... the working group...

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oh forgot to say that the person who helped me rid this blog of the name it didn't want was miss Tho Xin Yi :)

sharmila-inspired resurrection

i am resurrecting this blog after seeing sharmila being so into her new blog... yeah she should be happy that she inspired me! and another reason is i have finally managed to get the blog address changed, with much difficulty. am i not creative enough? i tried so so so many names but none was available, except for yipyoketeng which i used just to try out if there's anything wrong with blogspot and if it is conning me. so now i know idunbelieve, areyouserious, dunkid, bewareofbilly, tonguetied, tonguetwisted, and even dunmakemeangry are not available. fine. i visited those sites and found that these addresses are really used, or occupied, as those sites have barely five entries. ok, enough ranting, i dun wan to make this blog another public diary, so i have not really found the purpose of having this blog yet, and yes i should well be meaninglessly occupying another site like the owners of dunkid and i dun believe... just see where this leads me to...